Dear self,
Firstly, a very Happy New Year to you. May you have the most glorious and satisfying year. May 2017 be the year you live the life you dream of. I know we have accepted the fact that ‘New Year, new me’ is totally bogus and nothing magical will happen because of a change in the number of the year. But, the hope that something can happen with a change is what should keep us going on. A change in us, which shall lead to forever changing our life for the good. Here is what I want to tell you.
You deserve to be happy. There are few things which I have realized in the past but was facing difficulty in accepting it. However, may this ‘new year ‘ thing be my excuse to accepting all of this for a better year.
- Forgive the people who have done you wrong (even if it’s your parents) and forget the past. I know it is hard but those flash backs of the bad past and the hollow feeling you have will ruin you. If you carry hate then you attract it too. This effects your personality and self. Unknowingly, we carry that hate onto others too at times. So, just let it go.
2.Try not to be over dependent on anyone. I know you must be having ‘people’ or just a ‘person’ who you love and they love you back. Love them unconditionally but never let their presence/absence/words/behavior ever let you effect in a way that you feel hopeless and lost when you fight with them or when they are gone. You gotta be strong, maybe you being wholly happy and better in yourself will improve all the relationships even more.
3.Okay, so I know your anxiety makes you feel emotionally paralyzed at times, but do you really think all this going to help you in anyway? To be scared by your own thoughts? You are someone who wants to achieve big things and you are gonna face scary situations and people all the time. Give your thoughts a break and be strong headed. A goal digger. Only then you can change your current case.
4.Don’t be scared if you will or will not achieve your goals. Just keep on working on them. The time lost worrying will never come back and you can’t add a disappointment like this that You Never Worked Hard when you could. Work to make yourself happy. Start applying for the jobs you want. Stop freaking out every time.
5.Go out, make some memories and stop day dreaming so much. It only makes things miserable. Connect with the people you want to connect to.
6.Be yourself. Yes! But it is okay to sometimes change your preferences and self to be cooperative for the one you love.
7. Talk to your parents and answer the phone when your friend calls! Don’t make yourself feel guilty because of this.
You can’t be sad all the time and punish yourself like that. Go and fly. You are pretty, start treating yourself with some self love, affection and respect. You are a smart kid, don’t think anyway different. You are funny and people like talking to you. So stop feeling like an outsider and smile bright with your crooked teeth.
I know all these things seem near to impossible right now but if this is how you’ll be happy, which would result in people being around you happy and turning your dreams into reality.Then be it! One step at a time. I am too blessed and thankful for my beautiful self and a golden heart. Now is the time for me to work for even more blessings and to love my people unconditionally.
Have a great 2017 you !
Love & Luck,
P.s: This post is also in honor of my Mom’s blue polka dot dress. Another classic steal from her closet. That’s me in my mothers arm when I was small.
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